saturnalia

the mourning of what?

I realized that I was not sad for losing the 2 years we had rather I was sad because of the 2 years of missed chances with other people, of wasted time with you. 

But then looking at the pictures of people comparing their lives today and two years ago, I would not have wanted to be a part of their present anyway. 

Grief makes you think of odd things. 

The Null of Creativity

The start of a new year takes us back to the drawing board. We make new plans and set new goals for the year ahead. My list was full and being only at the 2nd week of January, I try my best to stick to the plan. Honestly, I feel so exhausted of trying to do everything at once. 

When the mind is full of the things you want to do in the future, you suffer from mental paralysis. The most important thing is still to live in the present.